feelings

it seems counterintuitive by how I grew up, and surprises me regularly, but if I feel feelings: hurt, angry, sad, scared, and ALLOW the feelings to happen? like, notice them, nod at them, don't judge myself for harboring them?

if I just feel them, instead of feeling ADDITIONAL feelings ABOUT feeling them?

they go away quicker.

like in the "fear is the mind-killer" monologue... eventually, only I remain .

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speshul Moon post

Originally posted by kylecassidy at post

The Blue Moon doesn't look any different than the other full moon this month and ... in fact, it isn't any different at all, but some weird things we do with calendars make it "rare" and ... because of that we import some special significance to it ... and why not?

"Leap Day" isn't real, but that doesn't mean I don't feel special on February 29th.

So go look at the moon. Feel special. It's a good thing.




Blue Moon. Clickenzee to Embiggen





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feelings, part two

So that thing I just posted about feeling my feelings, and it feeling weird because I wasn't like, judging myself for feeling them?

Naamah_darling took a similar headspace several notches further. (and more completely explored, and better written than I did, but then she always does. Go read it, please.)

I *get this*. What she's saying? I get this. This makes sense. It wasn't safe to feel-feelings in my house, and especially not in front of my dad. (it's not to say we were ever physically abused... but verbally? and did we get our emotional needs met?... that'd be "yes" and "no", in order.)

that's as much as I can handle talking about tonight. Just some shit I am gonna have to think more about.