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Three dreams this morning/last night two I still remember and one that faded with the light. All were me, committing to do different jobs.
The first one was a clerical job. I was introduced to a very messy situation without clear beginning or ending, I had two separate and messy responsibilities (desks) that I was gonna have to clear out before I could really get started. One of the two desks was in a high traffic area of the office (analogous to "next to the copier), and was a shallow workstation piled with papers and stuff and junk. High distraction from others around. The other workstation had, specifically, a thousand tiny photographs of the previous owner/occupant/worker, pinned to the walls and suspended, in long strings, from ingenious structures on the ceiling. I was not told who they were or what to do with the photos, but I vowed to myself to put them away carefully so I could return them to the person whose they were.
Themes: neglect, abandonment, clutter, mess, disorganization, and solitary work.
The second dream was set in an amalgamation of classrooms I've taught in and classrooms I went to school in. The same theme of mess, clutter collections, the desperate hoarding of supplies, students swirling around, some helpful, some indifferent, some unhelpful. But still I always wanted to do better for the students, that was my motivation.
In both cases clearing the decks completely, just shoveling it all into a dumpster and starting from scratch would be easier, but in both cases burning it all down meant giving up on a few specific valuable things inherent to the space.
BUT! if you know what those valuable things are, and you have other resources available, you can seek and find the valuable things to keep them, and then quickly shovel the rest out of the way so you can get things DONE.
FOCUS tight on the valuable things. Trash the broken, outdated, useless. Trash the harmful. Trash the lies. Give peoples things back to them by which I mean return that which belongs to others and isn't your rightful possession. Work together to make it a better place. Ask for help when you need it. Find the people who actually will give you the help you need.
You know more than you realize. You are stronger, and more powerful, then you know. Pick a part of the project and get to work. We all have to start somewhere, and getting overwhelmed by the state of the current mess isn't helpful. So take a deep breath, pick one thing, and get going
Since I don't remember the third dream but I remember there /was/ a third dream? I'm just going to say that it was a dream about celebrating and dancing and hugging and being with people and accomplishment and love and striving to make the world better.
The first one was a clerical job. I was introduced to a very messy situation without clear beginning or ending, I had two separate and messy responsibilities (desks) that I was gonna have to clear out before I could really get started. One of the two desks was in a high traffic area of the office (analogous to "next to the copier), and was a shallow workstation piled with papers and stuff and junk. High distraction from others around. The other workstation had, specifically, a thousand tiny photographs of the previous owner/occupant/worker, pinned to the walls and suspended, in long strings, from ingenious structures on the ceiling. I was not told who they were or what to do with the photos, but I vowed to myself to put them away carefully so I could return them to the person whose they were.
Themes: neglect, abandonment, clutter, mess, disorganization, and solitary work.
The second dream was set in an amalgamation of classrooms I've taught in and classrooms I went to school in. The same theme of mess, clutter collections, the desperate hoarding of supplies, students swirling around, some helpful, some indifferent, some unhelpful. But still I always wanted to do better for the students, that was my motivation.
In both cases clearing the decks completely, just shoveling it all into a dumpster and starting from scratch would be easier, but in both cases burning it all down meant giving up on a few specific valuable things inherent to the space.
BUT! if you know what those valuable things are, and you have other resources available, you can seek and find the valuable things to keep them, and then quickly shovel the rest out of the way so you can get things DONE.
FOCUS tight on the valuable things. Trash the broken, outdated, useless. Trash the harmful. Trash the lies. Give peoples things back to them by which I mean return that which belongs to others and isn't your rightful possession. Work together to make it a better place. Ask for help when you need it. Find the people who actually will give you the help you need.
You know more than you realize. You are stronger, and more powerful, then you know. Pick a part of the project and get to work. We all have to start somewhere, and getting overwhelmed by the state of the current mess isn't helpful. So take a deep breath, pick one thing, and get going
Since I don't remember the third dream but I remember there /was/ a third dream? I'm just going to say that it was a dream about celebrating and dancing and hugging and being with people and accomplishment and love and striving to make the world better.
