reblog from the tumblez

[labelleizzy]

It’s 2 am. I’m up way past my bedtime because of reasons, namely that my brain won’t shut up and I’m feeling overwhelmed.
Recently diagnosed with ADHD and I don’t know what to do about it. Feels like I’ve been breaking any good things in my life, my whole life.
Only thing to give me peace tonight (this morning) is realizing that I am allowed to ask for help. I have two or three points of contact who may prove helpful. My therapist is one.
Depression sucks. ADHD sucks. Unemployment sucks. I have really good things in my life and I know it, intellectually, but I can’t keep them in focus right now.
I’m going to ask for help. Because I said I would.
This post is how I’m gonna keep myself accountable. Xposting to dreamwidth.
If you struggle with depression, ADHD, lack of purpose, lack of self worth, I’d like to hear from you.

adhd actually adhd depression low self worth low self confidence bad night help request because i said i would accountability gdi brain of course that's a tag
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Apr 9th, 2017

Comments

[tjoel2]

I do get very low somedays. There are days when I can rock the self-care and then days when it's taking everything I have to not fall into the abyss. Days when the brain is cycling through old stories of worthlessness, regret and guilt.

I'm glad that you made this post.

[labelleizzy]

I'm glad if this helps at all. My cycling seems to be strongly correlated to my hormones... And thank goddess for the Mirena IUD, because this-all used to be a rollercoaster​ of NO FUN and now it's like hey-pay-attention and then relaxes for the most part.

*Gentle hugs* I fucken HATE that abyss.
You can ping me at this handle at Gmail if you need distracted or encouraged. My worst days are depression and feeling useless, so you're welcome to ask for a life preserver to be thrown, if you need one.

[tjoel2]

Thanks, I appreciate that. Some days I feel like I totally have my shit together and then other days it all hits me and feels like too much.

[labelleizzy]

Self Care is such a fuckin radical act in this culture! I have specific routines now to start and end the day, without which I flounder.
They're not even very detailed or elaborate, they just make sure that I eat and get all my meds. I'm planning on getting more habits in place to keep me going till I get my shit together and find a job.
What I said to Teigh_corvus above goes double for you. If you want to come hang out on FB with other adhders, you're totally welcome.

[tjoel2]

Self care routines are so important! Kudos to you for doing that and sticking with it.

I'd love to hang out on FB with you all. Can you PM me the group?

[labelleizzy]

Yes indeed!