Be the change you want to see.

I loved you with butterflies in my stomach:
Fire in my belly, heated loins and hungry hands.
A totally new love, so different from the love before...
I was only allowed to love so far, in just these ways
Because you have to love your family, right?
But they don't know how you need to be loved.
I'm sorry I broke your heart.
It's just that I didn't know how to let go;
Never have known how, really.
I still hold you
But I hold you lightly now, loosely.
You're free to go and live your life and your loves.
I can miss you still,
While I live my life and have my loves as well.
It's been a good life, and looks to get even better.
For you and yours, as well.
I'm happy for you, truly.
And I've stopped my old habit of tracing
Those might-have-beens
And instead I look back fondly remembering.
I miss you, truly.
But I don't miss being twenty.
I love you.
Be well.



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