Hello, Salmon of Wisdom...

[labelleizzy]

Last night I got, as a friend of mine used to say, Thwacked With The Salmon Of Wisdom... cos some of us don't get to eat the salmon, and that's just how it goes.

I have to find a Professional Fisherman who can supply me with Salmon-Thwacks until I learn better how to fish for my own Learned Fish.

...am a bit discouraged. Have a lot of stuff to work on: need to raise the bar from Calendaring to Logistics (which is more complicated, of course); need to Time Manage so I get all my homework done before class (I'm wayyyy behind now), and I need to seriously re-engage in the Job Search.

I want to crawl into a cave, or go do EVERYthing else other than what I need to do. But I can't afford to get distracted, somehow I just lost 2 hours (though I did finish my project for Saturday's class).

Would I "manage my time" better if I had a job? A regular routine? You bet your bippy I would.

(GODS I hate jobhunting.)

Gonna go eat lunch and get done what I need to.

Comments

here fishy fishy fishy

[temperance14.livejournal.com]

(let me try posting this comment again)

AS I WAS SAYING,
If I wasn't taking Monday off to work on homework, I'd come over and smake

(argh spelling) smack you with a fish.

As you can see, today I am at work and being professional.
Nargh.

Go get 'em. You kick ass. Your foot is just saving it's energy for the proper butt.

Re: here fishy fishy fishy

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

the butt that needs it is MINE and I'm having trouble getting the vector right or even STARTING the kick.

Had some unpleasant truths brought out. I mean, you SAY you want to see yourself as others see you but you don't want to see the ugly parts or realize how much damn HARD WORK it's going to take to get the ugly parts to be socially acceptable.

gah! I am so frustrated and I am trying not to use self-hating language or to do any blaming behaviors and the truth is it's MY fault, _I_ have fucked some things up, and _I_ am afraid of the consequences.

thanks for the encouragement. feeling kind o crappy here.

[chrisfs.livejournal.com]

treat it like a part time job. Get up in the morning, (9:00?) look for and apply for jobs until lunchtime (noon?), have lunch, do something else, do a bit more until dinner. Have some other activity for the evening. Do that 5 days a week. Adjust to taste.

I got my last job through volunteering. Can you volunteer at a school or something?

Re: here fishy fishy fishy

[temperance14.livejournal.com]

Actually, I consider you quite strong. You've attempted and accomplished much more than I could imagine doing.

We all have points in life when we are frustrated with ourselves. If you feel some of it is valid, try to accept but not punish yourself. Everyone makes life mistakes, and we learn.

Also keep in mind that sometimes our mistakes are not result of a flawed character, but trying to follow advice or expectations of others, or pushing ourselves past our current strengths. All these can be rectified. The start to correct those kinds of errors is to forgive yourself for trying to follow well meant advice, or for having limits. Forgive yourself for being human.

Usual hugs, and more than usual faith in you,
Temperance

[kittiliscious.livejournal.com]

This is totally off topic, but I just wanted to tell you that I am very excited to see you on Saturday night. :)

(by which I mean tomorrow!)

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

TWO very good idea. Concrete tips work well for me.

Yes, I need a regular schedule, and yes, I think I could do the 3-4 hours jobsearching per day to start with. Thanks, that's a manageable amount, and concrete.

Volunteering also good. Getting my butt out of the house as I do when I am on the job is another good habit to get back into.

Wow. Thanks, Chris!!

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

WOO! just found your reminder evite - thanks for doing that, and we can probably just about make it to your place in time.