cranky

[labelleizzy]

I'm a cranky lady tonight.

It sucks to be an adult.

I'm not living up to my own expectations, I'm _almost_ getting what I need (and how FRUSTRATING it is, to fall short of what I need), and it feels like almost everyone (the childish voice says, "no, EVERYONE!") but me is getting more, being happier, more fulfilled, accomplishing their tasks better than I am...

I'm just going to sit over here in my crankypants for a little while.

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[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

through the lj-glass. Good point.

And it's not that I'm not grateful for what I have. I do try to be.

I guess it's natural to want things. Wasn't it Shakespeare's line about wanting this one's scope, or that one's art?

and I think it's also natural to be unhappy with your lot occasionally, or you'd never strive toward something better...

(oh, and re: accomplishing my tasks? at work I'm barely hanging on by my fingernails and just PRAYING to survive till the last day of school. I think they can't fire me at this point but I keep living in fear of my own incompetence and (current but not usual) apathy.

Thanks for YOUR perspective - it's valuable to hear that I'm doing some things right, by someone else's yardstick.