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July 3rd, 2020

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Friday, July 3rd, 2020 01:37 am
Had a hugging dream this morning. At a gas station, I run over to Lefty (dream-you gives good hugs too) & then realized I had no mask, went yikes, and woke up.

The other mini dream I had was less fun
In the dream Donaldo trumpissimo wanted to have sex with me. And I was taking refuge in the extremely formal language that I use to keep distance from unwelcome people, and in the dream I looked around the oval office (in retrospect I'm surprised I wasn't feeling regret that This was how I got to see the oval office) and I remember feeling extremely cautious about how I might successfully exit the room unassaulted, fully expecting that secret service and other guards would be no help in getting me out of the situation.

After I woke up this second time, I lay there still feeling cautious and on guard, and I realized something about the "grab them by the pussy" remark which is incredibly obvious in retrospect.
Trump said "they just let you do it"
And I realized that was simply a "freeze" reaction, of the "fight, flight, fawn, freeze, fuck" series.

And most women I know got trained out of their bodily autonomy before they were out of grade school. Poisonous culture.

More to chew on here. No solutions, not yet.