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That thing I said yesterday? about not getting dressed till choir?
Umm, no. That won't work.
Jeff needed at BART by shortly after 9. I came home and started tea and to cook breakfast... it was a bit after 10 when a synapse fired and I thought, "it's Thursday today? waitaminnit" checked calendar - nothing. Found business card for Acalanes... yup, the appointment with their personnel office was for Thursday, 10 am. *facepalm* Fortunately I was STILL dressed and had eaten and had tea at this point. I phoned, apologized, asked if it would be all right for me to come over shortly, answer was yes. Covered the food, put deodorant and the breast-containment-device on, boogied out, found that my house is literally a 4 minute drive from their district office.
Got there, cooled my heels for a bit (okay, I did deserve it - next time I have GOT to write it on the calendar immediately once I get out to my car and not trust my memory or the little business card).
Discovered there was to be an interview with head of personnel. Okay, wished I'd dressed up a little, done something with my hair, but okay.
Here's the nice part. The head of Acalanes personnel was the one person during my first try at jobhunting after learning I'd be losing the job at my former school, to give me encouraging words. He probably doesn't realize how much of an effect his kind and reasonable words had on me, but I intend to write him a brief thank you explaining that. He's the one who said, at the right time, "Sometimes, the job is just not a good fit. (emphasis mine.) We have teachers who start out with us, leave after a year or two or don't receive tenure, change districts, and are perfectly happy in their new position and stay there till they retire. And the same thing in reverse - we hire teachers from other districts who weren't happy there but come to work for us, and it's just a better fit."
*happy sigh!* And on top of that, the interview was intellectually challenging, and despite the surprise, not a worrisome affair at all. I did well, expressed myself coherently and without fear, and I believe I made a good impression, despite my casual attire.
I think this is the payoff of all that Work I have been doing.
Calm. Clarity. Positive self-image.
I like where I'm at. =)
After the interview, Gail was going to fingerprint me but the machine was glitching (even ctrl-alt-del didn't fix everything, lol!) so I'm to phone her and come get prints done when it's convenient.
So I have just a little while before I have to be heading over to group, not the homework-o-rama kind of day I was expecting, but quite, quite rewarding anyway. Now to apply with Lafayette, Orinda, and Walnut creek districts, since they share fingerprinting results with Acalanes
Still to do: 3 chapters of reading in Steiner's Kingdom of Childhood lectures, one writing assignment: "write about an event in your life that didn't make sense to you at the time, but is beginning to now, with a new perspective," and a self-evaluation for the last class we took.
I got it. *grinning*
God, I feel good about all this. Ducks in a row, and all. I know this is a peak, that it won't always go as well as this, but I also know that there was a moment of release and healing a few weeks ago, and it wasn't temporary, it wasn't a stopgap measure or a bridge... something really really has changed.
Really, really, a paradigm shift, a change in me, toward solidity and centeredness and wholeness.
There is nothing wrong with me.
I just have had to learn to get RID of everything I've been carrying along, that was NOT me, still working on it, but I can't begin to put into words how this all feels, and the Potential for Greatness that I finally perceive.
In myself.
Whoa. How about THAT?
Umm, no. That won't work.
Jeff needed at BART by shortly after 9. I came home and started tea and to cook breakfast... it was a bit after 10 when a synapse fired and I thought, "it's Thursday today? waitaminnit" checked calendar - nothing. Found business card for Acalanes... yup, the appointment with their personnel office was for Thursday, 10 am. *facepalm* Fortunately I was STILL dressed and had eaten and had tea at this point. I phoned, apologized, asked if it would be all right for me to come over shortly, answer was yes. Covered the food, put deodorant and the breast-containment-device on, boogied out, found that my house is literally a 4 minute drive from their district office.
Got there, cooled my heels for a bit (okay, I did deserve it - next time I have GOT to write it on the calendar immediately once I get out to my car and not trust my memory or the little business card).
Discovered there was to be an interview with head of personnel. Okay, wished I'd dressed up a little, done something with my hair, but okay.
Here's the nice part. The head of Acalanes personnel was the one person during my first try at jobhunting after learning I'd be losing the job at my former school, to give me encouraging words. He probably doesn't realize how much of an effect his kind and reasonable words had on me, but I intend to write him a brief thank you explaining that. He's the one who said, at the right time, "Sometimes, the job is just not a good fit. (emphasis mine.) We have teachers who start out with us, leave after a year or two or don't receive tenure, change districts, and are perfectly happy in their new position and stay there till they retire. And the same thing in reverse - we hire teachers from other districts who weren't happy there but come to work for us, and it's just a better fit."
*happy sigh!* And on top of that, the interview was intellectually challenging, and despite the surprise, not a worrisome affair at all. I did well, expressed myself coherently and without fear, and I believe I made a good impression, despite my casual attire.
I think this is the payoff of all that Work I have been doing.
Calm. Clarity. Positive self-image.
I like where I'm at. =)
After the interview, Gail was going to fingerprint me but the machine was glitching (even ctrl-alt-del didn't fix everything, lol!) so I'm to phone her and come get prints done when it's convenient.
So I have just a little while before I have to be heading over to group, not the homework-o-rama kind of day I was expecting, but quite, quite rewarding anyway. Now to apply with Lafayette, Orinda, and Walnut creek districts, since they share fingerprinting results with Acalanes
Still to do: 3 chapters of reading in Steiner's Kingdom of Childhood lectures, one writing assignment: "write about an event in your life that didn't make sense to you at the time, but is beginning to now, with a new perspective," and a self-evaluation for the last class we took.
I got it. *grinning*
God, I feel good about all this. Ducks in a row, and all. I know this is a peak, that it won't always go as well as this, but I also know that there was a moment of release and healing a few weeks ago, and it wasn't temporary, it wasn't a stopgap measure or a bridge... something really really has changed.
Really, really, a paradigm shift, a change in me, toward solidity and centeredness and wholeness.
There is nothing wrong with me.
I just have had to learn to get RID of everything I've been carrying along, that was NOT me, still working on it, but I can't begin to put into words how this all feels, and the Potential for Greatness that I finally perceive.
In myself.
Whoa. How about THAT?
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