Today I was my own dopamine Fairy

[labelleizzy]

Today I did one of my pay it forward tasks.

Today I drove out to Cupertino to pick up my friend's s*** from her ex-boyfriend. They split up a while ago and he has been gas lighting her since just a little bit before they split up.

His name's Johan. Don't date him.

Anyway, I'd offered something like two weeks ago and just spontaneously got the executive functioning going well enough that I engaged with him yesterday to do the thing today, and after my workout this morning, and food after that, I got my ducks in a row.

Pinged Johan for where I'd pickup his drop-off, he condescends to say, yeah I guess this method is better for L's nerves

LIKE FUCK YOU, DUDE

He gave me a map pin, it was accurate, I parked at the red zone like the Amazon and UPS vans, turned on my hazard lights like them, grabbed the black plastic bag with her stuff, passenger seat, (traffic was heavy through the neighborhood) and then legged it over to L's.

Dropped the bag o stuff on her back porch (her house is weird, built on a corner and has 2 back porches, a tiny one about 3'x2' off one of the bedrooms I think, and the actual back porch for like BBQ or whatever.)

And then I came home and read my own pornography, and a couple of other people's, for awhile.

My pornography has now reached 49k words for the current series, and well past 120 k for all my words posted to AO3.

So I mentioned on FB today that I feel like "a real writer" and just, Yay.

Also, the trees are FINALLY, finally changing color. Sent photos to Stephen in the Bahamas per request, and also I felt like a badass in sneakers, yoga pants, sweater and the black denim trench coat Luisa have me last year. I fucking love that thing...

Comments

[noahgibbs]

It's awesome when you get to look at something you did and say, "hey, I did that" isn't it? I feel like that when I Google something about Ruby programming and my old blog posts come up as an answer :-) Yay! The thing I made is useful, because today I'm using it.

[cjsmith]

What a kindness that must be for L. I know nothing about her or the situation beyond what you’ve said, but it must be super for L not to have to deal with him.

[labelleizzy]

Making things that other people like and use is amazing. Making things that I like and use is INCANDESCENT. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT.

And yeah I'll sometimes be rereading old blog posts and go, huh, that was smart! Nice brains there

That's very cool to be using your own post for reference. Must be satisfying as hell.

[labelleizzy]

Yeah this is an example of me trying to continue paying it forward. I left my ex-husband almost 20 years ago, and the day that I plan to move out, I had six friends, and they just showed up that morning, one of them with the 12 person transport van from our club, empty and ready to take my boxes & furniture.

They got me out of there in three hours flat. And the relief that that was, not to be a face to face with my ex and having a slow exodus, you know?

My friends and I did the labor, the club friend directed traffic. Mom let me use her garage for storage for 6 months, a coworker put me up for free till the marriage settlement could be cashed out. My sister went to the divorce workshop with me and took notes when my mind was FUBAR, and served papers on my ex husband.

My life changed forever because my friends and family helped me for a couple of days, or weeks.

I love being that person, helping, when I can. I'll never pay them back, but I can pay it forward.

[hitchhiker]

paying stuff forward is wonderful. bless you for doing that for L.

[labelleizzy]

*hug* thank you.

[cjsmith]

That’s wonderful. I’m so glad they were there for you, and glad you were there for L.