I can be a special kinda stupid. I can look willfully ignorant and inconsiderate. Perhaps I am actually stupid, willfully ignorant, and/or inconsiderate.
That is not my intention. I try to be the opposite of those things.
Intention doesn’t matter when someone feels they have been harmed by my actions.
So I’ve booked an appointment with my therapist and gonna unpack what’s going on. It’s gonna be rough. But that’s the grown-up thing to do, and in a case like this, it’s irresponsible to say “I don’t wanna adult today.”
All I can do is what I can do. The only person I can change is myself.