dance class was Awesome (fsvo awesome) (100 things #33)

[labelleizzy]

Dance class had some ups & downs.

Up: still a great workout...
Down, I got my foot stomped
Up, very therapeutic
Down, I was brought to tears when Claire asked us, after dancing 90 minutes, to consider what in us was "precious" - fragile and worth cherishing... and I thought My Heart, my heart, it is so tender and unprotected... and I cried till tears dropped from my chin ...

but I have now, for the first time, referred to something about Myself as precious. I didn't even know I could DO that. :-/
I didn't know that was an option.

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Comments

[aliyna.livejournal.com]

Honestly I feel the same way, about not knowing I could do that- I know I'm a bit younger than you, but I really am one of the toughest bitches when it comes down to my day-to-day workings. I'm cynical, my hatches are battened down, the armor's on, I let everything I can just roll right off- because I can't handle anything else. The second you crack me I'm a weepy mess who has been hurt way, way too many times, and has done some hurting, too.

And this is a problem I came up against with my therapist, she'd always be like, "What are you feeling?" and my answer was always a shrug and a vague head shake: "Nothing, really." Because I don't. I don't feel anything 90% of the time. And as I was reading your consideration that your heart was precious, I was imagining considering my heart precious, and as soon as I visualized cracking open it's train case of protection I was like NOPE. NOPE. It's sore in there! And painful! I'm out. ::shut::

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

Tatsuya said it way better than I could ever.

[aliyna.livejournal.com]

Oh man. Yeah. Gotta love Sinfest.

[kittiliscious.livejournal.com]

I have cried in dance class before. It can be cathartic. Of course, it helps that I was in a mostly-dark room and didn't need to worry about other people noticing.

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

The room is dimly lit, dances are held at the local Mason's Lodge in the Ballroom/Theater space...

I was so overcome though, that the problem was in holding back from audible sobs. It was interesting, and again, sudden.