Remarkable celebration today with Community Seed in Santa Cruz. Damned effective ritual.
Had a Something come to the surface, this is why I love ritual so much.
It doesn't want words wrapped around it yet (thanks, dear Childself) but I have a direction, much clearer now.
And I have a Patron.
Thanks, dear Brigid, for waiting while I kicked my own ass (or while life kicked it) and thanks for being there when I came to myself again on the other side of the beating.
Time to remove the last vestiges of old childishness (and in one small regard I have been *persistent* about being childish) and as part of today's burning away of the unnecessary and unwanted...
Done with that. Done with believing in my own helplessness, done with doubting my worth in the world.
Fuck all that shit. I'm going to learn where I can insert myself between something wrong and someone who needs help. Period.
THAT'S the job I want.
Had a Something come to the surface, this is why I love ritual so much.
It doesn't want words wrapped around it yet (thanks, dear Childself) but I have a direction, much clearer now.
And I have a Patron.
Thanks, dear Brigid, for waiting while I kicked my own ass (or while life kicked it) and thanks for being there when I came to myself again on the other side of the beating.
Time to remove the last vestiges of old childishness (and in one small regard I have been *persistent* about being childish) and as part of today's burning away of the unnecessary and unwanted...
Done with that. Done with believing in my own helplessness, done with doubting my worth in the world.
Fuck all that shit. I'm going to learn where I can insert myself between something wrong and someone who needs help. Period.
THAT'S the job I want.
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