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I wish that I had had access to the term executive functioning, or executive dysfunction, years ago. Having the knowledge that this is a thing, makes a big difference in how harshly I will judge myself for failing to do things that I feel like I should be doing.
I have trouble writing, at least fiction. I'm writing short pieces for Tumblr right now, or occasional answers to questions on quora. I have multiple works in progress on AO3, and I can feel the story sitting in that part of my brain, and I can't find a way to let it out yet. And it's frustrating as hell.
This executive dysfunction is largely, I guess, emotionally based, sometimes physical distress is part of it but largely when I'm in emotional distress is when I have the most difficulty. And today, I'm only writing this post because I am out of the house, house sitting/cat sitting for my friend girl purple. And while I'm here, I can use speech to text.
For writing, it hits me in different places to write by hand, to write at a keyboard, to write on the phone, or to dictate. At this immediate moment I'm making an end run around the writing dysfunction by speaking instead. I've been thinking there must be other ways to get around the fact that writing is hard right now I mean, now more than usual. With the pandemic and shelter in place, with not being able to have access to my usual support network, or my activities that feed me, like dance, like going to an open floor dance or a five rhythms dance, I can't go visit my friends I can't ask somebody to come over and sit with me while I accomplish things. I think maybe I need to pet the cats, and maybe I need to sit down and let myself feel my feelings.
I think the next thing that I will do for myself is I will write down onto paper and put it up somewhere I can see it, the list I just made of the different ways that I could write and perhaps I will also pull out the couple of self-help books that I've used in the past to wake up the skills that I have had in the past to Get Shit Done.
Time to go eat a food and try to get shit done.
I have trouble writing, at least fiction. I'm writing short pieces for Tumblr right now, or occasional answers to questions on quora. I have multiple works in progress on AO3, and I can feel the story sitting in that part of my brain, and I can't find a way to let it out yet. And it's frustrating as hell.
This executive dysfunction is largely, I guess, emotionally based, sometimes physical distress is part of it but largely when I'm in emotional distress is when I have the most difficulty. And today, I'm only writing this post because I am out of the house, house sitting/cat sitting for my friend girl purple. And while I'm here, I can use speech to text.
For writing, it hits me in different places to write by hand, to write at a keyboard, to write on the phone, or to dictate. At this immediate moment I'm making an end run around the writing dysfunction by speaking instead. I've been thinking there must be other ways to get around the fact that writing is hard right now I mean, now more than usual. With the pandemic and shelter in place, with not being able to have access to my usual support network, or my activities that feed me, like dance, like going to an open floor dance or a five rhythms dance, I can't go visit my friends I can't ask somebody to come over and sit with me while I accomplish things. I think maybe I need to pet the cats, and maybe I need to sit down and let myself feel my feelings.
I think the next thing that I will do for myself is I will write down onto paper and put it up somewhere I can see it, the list I just made of the different ways that I could write and perhaps I will also pull out the couple of self-help books that I've used in the past to wake up the skills that I have had in the past to Get Shit Done.
Time to go eat a food and try to get shit done.
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