Depression TM

[labelleizzy]

It doesn't feel like I'm doing such a good job at self care today. I'm doing that thing again where I only eat starch or crackers and cheese. I did one useful thing today which was take the cat out to have her claws trimmed. She seems to be happier now. My belly muscles uncomfortable, and it makes it hard to take a deep breath? But the sun's come out and it's not raining anymore. Shouldn't I be more cheerful? Shouldn't I feel all filled up with energy and happy? I have a whole bunch of things going well for me right now I have a dozen things I can think of off the top of my head that I could be writing or making or doing places to go people to see. Appointments to make appointments to keep. But I can't make myself do it
I'm trying my usual thing I'm eating a little more food and seeing if that helps my mood and my energy levels. Maybe I just need to get dressed and get out of the house. Maybe that's all I need.

Comments

[noahgibbs]

Sounds like you're seeing the shape of this.

If you're only eating starch, crackers and cheese for a short time (maybe a couple of days?), that's reasonable, especially right now. If it's more like a week, that's not so good. But it sounds like you're trying eating some real food now to see if that helps, so... good.

As far as how long you get to grieve? Longer than this, no question.

[plymouth]

Digging out of depression takes effort when effort is the hardest thing to do. You did a thing, that's awesome! But, no, it won't be enough to fill you with energy and happy unfortunately. That takes even more of that effort thing. Each time you effort it DOES get slightly easier though...