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The topic was "wholeness and goodness" and Claire's premise was, we are all whole, and we are all good. Despite our pain and stress and frustration and disappointment and all the shit going down... We are whole and we are good.
I... can't actually say-&-believe "I am good" and "I am whole"... Closer to the second though.
What I CAN bring myself to say, is "what IF I was whole? What IF I were good?"
I can sit there in the possibility of those potentials, I can make that potential, that possibility, into a touchstone.
I can fake it till I make it. Yeah.
Moving at dance was glorious. My body hurts now in the sore because I moved it a lot not sore because muscle spasms. That's an improvement.
And I got some really nice hugs and helped Scott through a sad place (he was snotty crying on the floor) and got love from Thom and got told I was not only whole and good but also beautiful by John (I may be misremembering his name... And this one incredible flow dance with Andrew. Just lovely.
I... can't actually say-&-believe "I am good" and "I am whole"... Closer to the second though.
What I CAN bring myself to say, is "what IF I was whole? What IF I were good?"
I can sit there in the possibility of those potentials, I can make that potential, that possibility, into a touchstone.
I can fake it till I make it. Yeah.
Moving at dance was glorious. My body hurts now in the sore because I moved it a lot not sore because muscle spasms. That's an improvement.
And I got some really nice hugs and helped Scott through a sad place (he was snotty crying on the floor) and got love from Thom and got told I was not only whole and good but also beautiful by John (I may be misremembering his name... And this one incredible flow dance with Andrew. Just lovely.