Anniversary.

[labelleizzy]

Today's my little brother's​ deathaversary.
Mom called me a couple of minutes ago. I hadn't truthfully been thinking about it, or him, today...
I have such a good life now. This makes the ... No... TENTH anniversary. Shit. Shit.

I loved him but it feels like I barely knew him.
I don't know what to do with this right now, now it's brought to the surface. I'mma go be productive.

Comments

[delphid]

Hugs. What is remembered, lives.

[labelleizzy]

What's remembered, lives.
I miss him.
And I miss the relationship that I didn't realize I needed to *work on*.
Just...
Fuck.
:(

[nerdqueer]

Death anniversaries can be so hard. My little sister has been dead for over 13 years now, and I still have trouble with her deathaversary and her birthday. I know we don't really know each other, but, for whatever it's worth, I'm sending good thoughts your way. <3

[labelleizzy]

Thanks, dear internet friend...
We never do quite get over it, I suspect.
And in 11 days is my dad's 23rd deathaversary. So yeah. Reasons why April sucks, to be sure.

[unmowngrass]

So sorry to hear this. <3