the last time I quit tolerating the intolerable, I lost a house, five cats, and a husband.
I think the husband and the cats are secure this time round, and the house is in flux anyway...and I'm cut loose from the job situation so I can start re-shaping that to my liking and needs, finally.
I never learned as a child how to let go of regret, of relationships... I spent a long time, maybe too long, in the States of Regret and Denial, beating myself up with "if only"s over things I couldnt change anyway...
I hold onto Stuff of all kinds because I have been Afraid I Will Need That (your capitalization tips are quite effective, BTW) and now I know I do NOT need That, after all, so it can go out of my life. Finally, I can look at That and see it for what it Is.
Yes, I may lose things, people, but it's all part of the Flow. Losing some things, gaining others. The trick is knowing how to make use of both the things you gain and the bare space left by the things you have lost/rid yourself of... (still learning that, long way to go still)...
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I think the husband and the cats are secure this time round, and the house is in flux anyway...and I'm cut loose from the job situation so I can start re-shaping that to my liking and needs, finally.
I never learned as a child how to let go of regret, of relationships... I spent a long time, maybe too long, in the States of Regret and Denial, beating myself up with "if only"s over things I couldnt change anyway...
I hold onto Stuff of all kinds because I have been Afraid I Will Need That (your capitalization tips are quite effective, BTW) and now I know I do NOT need That, after all, so it can go out of my life. Finally, I can look at That and see it for what it Is.
Yes, I may lose things, people, but it's all part of the Flow. Losing some things, gaining others. The trick is knowing how to make use of both the things you gain and the bare space left by the things you have lost/rid yourself of... (still learning that, long way to go still)...
Fair warning. Thanks.