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[labelleizzy]

So I think this is depression again. As the change of the year, as the days get shorter, darker, colder.
But I think I've been struggling with this for a long time. Since I lost the teaching job, since I lost daily contact with hundreds of people who were enthusiastic and interesting and various ways. I can go days now where I only see Jeff. And I don't seem to have the energy to dig myself out and go solicit company.

Tonight I am tired and sleepy, I got a short weekend of sleep because we went camping and the first night was also the last night, because it was too cold. Because it was October already, maybe we should have realized. It was still fun but the sleep deficit is real.

The anhedonia is real also. Everything seems sort of numb and wrapped in cotton wool. All I do is read, it feels like. Even when I have things that would connect me to other people, I can't make myself do it. I'm made an appointment to see the therapist, hopefully talking to Lara will un snarl some things.

Comments

[noelfigart]

Ouch. I hope that you and your therapist come up with something good.

And more importantly, that you simply feel better.

[cjsmith]

:(

I hope this gets better for you soon. :(

[tarasacon]

I hear you. *hugs* if desired.

I’ve started using my SAD light early this year. It doesn’t compensate for my lack of community, but it helps stave off the lower edges of depression.

[hitchhiker]

that sounds rough :( *hug*

[princeofwands]

This timeline is total bullshit, but yay you for working through it all. I hope you find your happy connections inspiration sooner than later. *hug*

[tshuma]

Agreed with PoW, this timeline is total bullshit. Wish I could reach out to you to help. Have a big, seesterly hug from afar. I hope Lara can suggest some good moves to make.